Dear Baby AZAH,
You are not a baby anymore; in two weeks you will be four years old. As your birthday approaches I have been reflecting on this past year. Your third year of life has been a great challenge, and I am so proud of the way you’ve grown. There have been so many major changes, in such a short amount of time, and truthfully, you have taken it all in strides. Thank you for being so resilient!
You have had to watch me become ill. I know that is not an easy thing. Our activities have changed from trips to the park and library to doctor’s appointments and many, many waiting rooms. You have had to watch your strong, fun mommy turn into a fragile being whom can hardly be touched without being in pain. Our lovey-dovey time together has all but disappeared due to my pain and irritableness. You’ve seen me cry more than I would have liked. But through all this YOU have been my comfort and my joy! You are always there with me even when I think I need to be by myself. When I’m in pain your gentle touch and sweet words lets me know that I am okay, because I am ok for you. You are such a great helper, and this year you have learned to do so much. You can do anything. Your abilities are immeasurable.
Next year I have to send you off into the world. I have no idea what the environment of school will do to your sweet trusting personality, and I worry that you will be hurt in knowing how the world really is. So I got 9 months left, to get you ready for the world. I remember going to grade school, and kids can be mean. I can’t send you out there without the proper armor. We have been working on the academic side of things for a while, but the social aspect will be something new to you. It’s time for me to tell it like it is, and let you make your own choice. If I’ve been doing my job right, you will choose wisely.
I love you Suga Mama! In all that you do, always do your best. You are a shining star, believe in yourself and shine bright to let everyone know! I pray that this fourth year of your life is free from hardship, and that our family continues to grow in love and faith. You are my comfort and my joy, and I am so proud to see how you are growing up.
Loving you always and forever,